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Friday, September 26th, 2003

Posted by:spinspin_booger.
Time:3:44 pm.
i think the very traits and characteristics that have gotten me as far in life as i have, as a single man, are perhaps the very same traits that will get me in trouble as a man in a loving relationship.

ownership.
leadership.
confidence.
a take-charge attitude.
a general belief that i am right (or at least more right, than you).
a lack of hesitation to express my disagreement.

i'm enduring humbling experiences each time i am with her. at times, it's tough. sometimes, even unbearable.

but it's right. she's right.
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Friday, July 25th, 2003

Posted by:tuanh.
Time:10:31 am.
Usually when I first meet someone, I give them the benefit of the doubt; which means there won't be any judgements made toward them until a few more meetings were over. When people tell me something, unless it's insanely off-track, I believe them until it has proven as false. I have a nature and tendency to not lie, lies that are harmful in nature, lies that are detrimental to bother myself and others. Of course, white lies are sometimes necessary for certain situation, and I do use them, as an empathic and objective speaker and listener. In my utopian state of mind, I dream of people implementing the same concepts, knowing that it is do-able only by about 20% of the current population. Sure, it's okay, I don't mind, people do whatever that's suitable for them. The only thing I hope for is my close and beloved ones, to do the same for me, in return for what I do for them. Give me the benefit of the doubts, believe my words, and not lie.

If I am confident enough to say what I said or say, then you should be confident enough to believe me. It hurts knowing someone dismissing what I say (right in my face) because they think they know better. Maybe that they know better, but do they know "outside of the box"? All that they know is that they know what they know in their mind, it wouldn't hurt giving me the benefits of the doubt and trust me for what I say.
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Thursday, July 10th, 2003

Posted by:tuanh.
Time:10:52 pm.
Frustration from a nice girl gone irritated:

-when I walk on the streets during the day, don't honk your horns at me. If I want to create a scene, I will let you know, jerks.

-to avoid you, I now take walks only at night. If you're a passerby, don't stop me and ask for my name. I will offer you my name when I want.

-If you are in a car driving pass me at night, please don't shout out at me walking on the sidewalks. I'm not a hooker, you asshats.

-If you are a passerby walking pass me, please don't mumble under your breath words for me to hear. If you want to say those words to me, say it in my face, and if any chance you might do that, please DON't.

-and if you happen to be racist, don't shout that line "me love you long time" from that VN movie at me. It won't do you any good, it will only pisses me off, assholes.
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Wednesday, July 9th, 2003

Posted by:tuanh.
Time:10:31 pm.
Hope you guys don't mind if I join. And please, don't judge me (in which I know you won't :)

In regards of the previous post, I'm sorry to say but you will meet more and more people who take those type of drugs. This society that we all live in is getting more and more tainted. People have too many problems, both introvertly and extrovertly. The ones that are introverts, they don't try at all. The ones that are extroverts, they try too hard. (Mind you, I know there are exceptions)
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Tuesday, July 1st, 2003

Posted by:spinspin_booger.
Time:10:56 am.
why do i keep meeting women on anti-depressants?

paxal.

prozac.

it's a lot of extra baggage to handle.

i don't want to sound unsympathetic to the cause...

but i'm really looking for a balance of emotions.
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Sunday, June 1st, 2003

Posted by:spinspin_booger.
Time:3:21 am.
sometimes, when i am really fucked up, i close my eyes and envision the oddest things...

blue cars with pick wheels. barbie pink.

a cigarette that filled with toothpicks.

a tiger that can dance to hip hop.

me, content with life.
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Sunday, May 4th, 2003

Posted by:spinspin_booger.
Time:6:24 pm.
is it good to follow social norms? to understand and appreciate the good of the whole, even at the expense of the individual? it is, isn't it?

i'm not so sure. although, i do it. although i often suck it up, in order to see that everyone is happy.

this is a situation of life imitating art. and in this case, the "art" is some romance play by shakespeare. it's not important which play i am referring to. just pick any one of his plays that involves a love triangle. romeo and juliet will do.

so my predicament involved me and two others. females of course. one had "something" for me in the recent past. actually, i think she still does. i thought i made it clear which direction i thought was best, but it seems she's not dealing with that as i thought she would. i wish she would. but she isn't. i could be wrong, but i don't think i am. i just don't know how else i can tell her this, without hurting her more.

and so the third corner of the triangle involves... her friend. her very good friend. just my luck. why is it that i ALWAYS meet the people in the wrong order. this would not even be an issue had i just met her friend first.

she's the most interesting person i've met in a long time. granted, i spent less than a day with her... but sometimes u just know.

and so there we all were. all hanging out together as "friends" do. but i couldn't deny that i would have been MUCH MUCH more forward in getting to know her friend, had it not been so awkward. had it not been wrong of me to openly show my interest.

i broke her heart once. i am not about to do it again. especially, in front her friend. in fact, i am so done breaking ANYONES heart anymore. i've learned my lessons, and am now ultra cognizant of consequences of my actions. i's rather hurt myself, than anyone else.

and so there it is. i made everyone happy. smiles galore. the group had a great time, from what i can tell. i wasn't selfish. i didn't act on my own desires. i saved face.

we danced, we smiled, we hugged... i said good night, and let her just walk away.

and this was a good thing... right?
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Wednesday, March 5th, 2003

Posted by:spinspin_booger.
Time:4:31 pm.
i'm not sure if this is "controversial"... but i need to get it off my back.

ladies...
if i am nice to u, go ahead and assume it's because i am a nice guy.
if i smile at u, go ahead and assume it's because i am in a good mood and something (perhaps u, but not necessarily) mad me smile.
if i say hi to u, go ahead and assume that i am friendly and i often greet people, regardless of gender, with a standard hello.

ladies,
if i am nice to u, do NOT assume that i am hitting on u.
if i smile at u, do NOT assume that i think u are "all that" and this is my first of several devious steps to get into your panties.
if i say hi to u, do NOT fucking roll your eyes and play me off like some socially-deprived, sex-crazed, single-minded asshole.

not every guy is an asshole, so don't play every guy like he is.

thank u.
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Tuesday, March 4th, 2003

Posted by:lolita_007.
Time:3:12 pm.
Mood: working.
slacking off at the moment, decided to create this community in search of what i mentioned in the bio.
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